Loving her is a battle
She's really a beautiful nightmare
Love HER...her presence, but not her actions
Heartache comes daily
So do the joys of hearing her voice
Where do I go from here ?
Love feels like a mistake, but leaving seems like an even bigger one
I know she needs me, but it doesn't show all the time
I stay up all night thinking...
What we are..
What we used to be..
What we couldve been..
Nothing's the same
...On the love tredmile...
Going nowhere, but still losing energy along the way
The first two steps of letting go are the hardest..
Convincing yourself to let go..
Then following thru with the plan
Once the trust is gone, what's left ?
A lot of 50/50 emotion
How could I love so good and feel so bad ?
Falling in love feels like the biggest set up for failure
...I miss being TRULY loved
Back when you got butterflies...
I'm tired of being fooled by your words..
Your actions..ugh !
I want someone who's right for me..
But I'm scared when she comes, I won't give her the love she deserves..
The love I possess deep down inside..
How can I start to love again when its hard to trust the feeling of falling..?
I wish I never met her..
Don't mind me..I'm just venting..